Just like a faucet that leaks and there is comfort in the sound
- - - WELCOME - - -

Welcome to Ran's selfship/yume page, this is a perpetual wip since I started it back in like 2022-2023 idr + I ripped out some text that's outdated so it's a bit barren but it's got the basics 👍

- - - NOTES - - -

I don't do fidelity lists BUT I may not follow back or interact very often if you're nonsharing/selective sharing of my more close friends f/o's to prevent any timeline awkwardness. This is just a personal thing I don't expect anyone to do the same for me so don't worry LOL

Generally I'm more selective than open sharing but if I follow you first it can be assumed I'm okay with you.
People who kin or ID as my f/o's are okay so long as y'all are okay with it
Some of my f/o's are connected to some quirky boy thoughts I get (I have delusions/identity disturbances)

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----- BF'S (gachikoi/riako)
13
Alma
Don Sonnellino
Heathcliff
Izou
Mikoto Kayano----- SELFSHIP
Hugo
Lu Liguang
Lei Heng

DISCLAIMER

To make distinctions on terms:
BF section = I am, genuinely, in love with them as if they were actually realSelfship = I love them a lot beyond just a favorite character but are able to differentiate it from actual romantic feelings

But while you debate "half empty or half full?"
It slowly rises, your love is gonna drown
DISCLAIMER

only a few chars here will get a page because i still had them left over, i'm being careful about carrd element limit sorgy.

- - - sharing - - -

💗 Barton (Alchemy Stars)
💖 Nails (Alchemy Stars)
💖 Hollow (Yumekuro)
💖 Pete (Library of Ruina)

💗 - romantic
💖 - queerplatonic

- - - selective - - -

💗 Wriothesley (Genshin)
💖 Arataki Itto (Genshin)

- - - OC-ified - - -

💗 Sawyer (OC, based on ShaMilk)
💗 Madara Mikejima (AU)
💗 Vlad (OC, based on Hugo)

    emojis: bubble tea / mirror
    sharing: selective
    I'll forgive you if you tell me now.

    -key things!-==playlist: == [link later]==pinboard: == [link later]==about: ==
    I genuinely don't know how this one happened . I love him a lot though he means a lot to me and got me through a lot even if it involved a questionable amount of maladaptive daydreaming and I Am So Fucking Scared For T3 Man .    In my head John is still alive and even though their system communication is still shit/Mikoto's still working through a lot of masking issues they're coping and happy outside of Milgrams awful system I hope this helps

      emojis: headstone
      sharing: selective
      That's awesome! C'mere, I'll pat your head

      -key things!-==playlist: ====pinboard: ==I won't beat around the bush I think I would've potentially offed myself if it wasn't for me running into him back in 2017, he means the world to me. The more and more we learn about him struggling to fit into his previous society and preferring to do what he likes instead yeah ASPD king! Love him...I wish I could talk more about him but I've experienced far too many fans who get A Bit Too Happy to torment him and it genuinely deeply distresses me so I'm staying in my own bubble playing with my touys but if you're chill about liking him you can stay idm

        emojis: storm ⛈
        sharing: generally okay, semi selective
        Oh, my hearts darling, hear me THIS time!

        -key things!-==playlist: ====pinboard: ==I have a lot of delusional issues regarding him and firmly believe my love for him beyond my current life is why my taste in men is the way it is and therefore it was fate that finally brought me to meet him in this life as this and I adamantly refuse to let go of him this time. That aside I think hes neat and I give him so many kissy on head like bnuuy, ok?<3I do have attachments to non-Limbus Heathcliff('s) as well but LCB is my main visualization of him next to HM666's Heathcliff so take that as well No I am not defending book Heathcliff whatsoever I draw lines very well but again I am unfortunately a delusional person and I can't really just Not Be Attached to him like that . Please be so nice to me

          emojis: church ⛪
          sharing: okay
          It's hard not to fall in love with you! I'm sure Karma feels the same way~

          -key things!-==playlist: ====pinboard: ==Yumekuro come back to me . Come back to me Yumekuro .
          Anyway I like him a normal amount I totally don't have the head and spine of his cardboard cutout post-deconstruction in my room still

            emojis: sword ⚔
            sharing: okay
            Yeah, just leave it to me. I'll always be your sword.

            -key things!-==playlist: ====pinboard: ==I miss him every day but I will not be returning to FGO on account that Id have to start from scratch at this point most likely and I am not about that life. He rotates in my head very politely though I feed him raw beef larb and we have a good time

              emojis: bat 🦇
              sharing: okay

              -key things!-==playlist: ====pinboard: ==I'm gnawing on his arm I do not know how he got into my house but he did and now he's here to stay despite my best efforts . I give him kissy anyway

                emojis: ox 🐂
                sharing: okay
                HOW ARE WE FEELING TODAAAAAY?!

                -key things!-==playlist: ====pinboard: ==Enstars owes me financial compensation still but it's okay I forgive them on the basis of I get to take this Madara specifically and run

                  emojis: rabbit 🐰
                  sharing: selective
                  It's just you and me now.

                  -key things!-==playlist: ====pinboard: ==I specifically only refer to him as Sonnellino/Don Sonnellino to help differentiate him from Frozen Soul. I dont know how this happened and now I fear my art styles trajectory has been changed Anyway I like him a lot and I only went to finally add him to the riako section because Im falling into the same habits I do with Heathcliff and Mikoto and that kinda dooms me. My Sonnellino is specifically half-Lao btw just throwing that out there